Dumps in the Down and Vice Versa...

WARNING: This is going to be somewhat of a depressing entry, so if you're feeling upbeat, it may be best to read this later.

So I don't know if it's the dreary weather, my cold and ear infections I can't seem to shake, or the fact that I've been alone 75% of the time, but lately, I've felt really futile here.  And I don't think it helps living in this somewhat small town, not so far from where I graduated high school.

I feel like I've recently lost touch with a lot of people I use to feel really close to - some of my best friends, even.  I don't know why these things happen.  Maybe it's because we've drifted apart.  Maybe it's because I'm tired of them constantly ditching me for their significant others or their other friends and not inviting me (which is a huge pet peeve of mine, and it also really hurts my feelings).  Or maybe I'm just over-exaggerating and letting small things get to my head... But still, it's the way I feel, and I think that should count for something.

If you've read my last post, you know that I graduated and am currently unemployed.  I've been job searching diligently for the past week and a half, and I finally have some prospects (2 interviews coming up, with some more jobs in mind to apply for).  This is all well and good, but I'm still just not super excited.  It's probably because Mom and Bill have been holding this job search thing over my head nonstop.  I swear, every single time I speak to that woman (which is quite often), the first thing she asks is "Have you found a job, yet?"  Even on my vacation with my brother, she called several times and mentioned the subject.  I just feel like it's my god damn vacation!  I just graduated with a degree - now give me a little break!

So with my dissolving relationships, and lack of school or a job, I just feel like I need a change.